August 17, 2010; 10:48 PM
The stern face you gave me earlier, the tone in your voice that signals callousness and the way you stare at me coldly. These were just few of the final things that concluded my feelings for you with a deep realization I should have declared to you a long time ago. These were just some of the few things that made me realize our relationship is not meant to last longer than I ever dreamed of.
The feelings you evoked upon me at this very moment are not new to me anymore. More pains and distresses you caused me a few months ago trained me to be stronger at this time. I could barely feel any pain inside when I should be crying as what I usually did when worse things happened a few months ago.
Earlier, when I said, “I won’t show my face to you anymore…” I couldn’t feel an inch of regrets for blurting those words to you. I felt I should have told you those words the moment you brought endless tears to my face during the onset of the cold -ber months of the previous year.
As I lay awake through out the night, thinking of how stupid I was to have kept you for quite long, I couldn’t feel any pain from what you told me earlier. My heart felt like a boulder of hard rocks piled up naturally. They settled within this heart of mine with great endurance as hard times passed me by for about a year already, blocking any negative feelings from entering at this time. Hey! Being hard or cold-hearted has its benefits, as well!
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